I often reminisce back to when I was 16 years old; so passionate, so certain, and so ambitious. I remember how I wasn't sure about what my future looked like, but dangit did I know I wanted it to look different. You see, my whole life has been about breaking the conventional; whether socially, ambition-wise, or even in my general lifestyle. I broke the mold in every way I could, and tried my best not to care when people got upset about it. That was me. Now, as I'm presently in my third year of Bible College, working towards my Bachelor of Arts in Not-for-Profit Leadership, I miss that 16 year old girl for her courage, vigor, and maybe even instability. The reason I do isn't because I wish it were a 'simpler time', but rather I miss the feeling of ownership over my fate. But I'll tell you something, I've never been one to accept less. Here's the low-down of what's going on in my life:
But that's not the point. Today I have something else to talk about, which is vision. I'm terrified at where God is calling me, how it interacts with my expensive degree-en-route, and whether or not you can live for both people and environmental sustainability. I mean, if you're going to do something, you should be able to focus on it, right? Wrong. I've had such a difficult time accepting that life is diverse, and God doesn't simply assign a job-title to you at conception and move on - that wouldn't represent His watermark of creative intricacy at all! So, in constantly combating my fears about singularity of cause, I am marrying my career in non-profit with my interest in wildlife and ecology and riding it on the back of my passion and call to families and youth. This re-collecting of self has taken a lot of time and effort, especially in combating anxiety from the public eye. But I'm excited for it; I'm excited to see what complexity brings to the table. Biodiversity is almost always good for an ecosystem, so I'm hoping that stands as the metaphor here. I feel confident that God will take care of me through this new direction, and I'm curious as to what He'll teach me along the way. You think that God has a set-in-stone plan for you, but the truth is - only He knows that plan; and will surely bring it upon you. The key is that we keep our heads up with confidence in His divine purpose, and let our shoulders down with relief that He's in control. So yippee-ky-yay, life. Let's get rolling. “Faith is moving forward even when things don’t make sense, trusting that in hindsight everything will become clear.” - Many Hale
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