It's funny, somehow, that we each fight so intensely for a place. We fight eachother, we fight life, we fight circumstance; we fight virtually anything that we perceive to stand in our way, or somehow devalue us. We find ourselves fighting against every unique challenging thing, regardless of its nature, and spend so much time scrutinizing each of them for potential threats. We spend so much time striving against the passing clouds of circumstance that we forget what kind of unmoving foundation we're rooted in. If you're an Enneagram type 4, like me, you know the fight for individual worth and you know it well. So much time used in the vacant land of the mind to put situations and people on the court stand for their true thoughts of our own individuality, weighing polarized either to assurance or opposition. I certainly have a knack for wasting time in the clouds of discernment. The truth is that each of us are uniquely made, and offer individually specific things to the world. But how can we press forward in offering our uniquely created selves to impact others without speculating our allies and our axis? obstacles, obstaclesYou know you'll never find me The above quote by own father has been a bit of a guiding post through time of needed discernment for me. He wrote it as a farewell lyric to his Highschool, promising greater heights of purpose and dedication than his peers would ever expect. Reading this quote over, I used to get so caught up in its secondary implications of opposition and surprising potential within. But in the past year, I have felt so much more inspired by its primary implication: dedication of self rather than opposition from others. I strive to know my potential, I seek to rise up against the odds, and I push against limitation; but do I similarly submit to the inevitability of my purpose and character? That, my friends, is the nature of speculation's distraction. If you believe your identity to include impact and you submit yourself to those purposes in the Kingdom, then what exactly are you spending so much time scrutinizing for malicious intent. The idea here is to own your s**t, and follow purpose, passion, and calling (whatever it is that grips you) to the ends of the earth untainted, only propelled, by circumstance. It's so important to own who and what we are, not simply because it sounds good in theory, but because it actually aligns with good mental health, increased productivity, and even has scriptural basis. I heard a sermon a few weeks ago about character development that was all about ownership of self and of God's direction. It's basis stood on acknowledging our weakness but proclaiming God's sovereign ability and faithfulness. It reminded me that my constant worry about my own ability, about the criticism of others about my ability, and about poor circumstance are all misplaced in suspicion and not in reality. My own tendency to hyper-speculate my circumstance is the only thing preventing me from following God's purposes contently, not the people and the poor situations that come against me. You may have noticed I haven't written in a long while, life gets in the way of introspection so easily, and my gaze drifts toward things of this world rather than the purposes of goodness. This post is a shorter one, as there's not really much content to this idea except introspection (right on branding, yah!). You see, even I have been held up fighting and striving and contorting and analyzing the threats of my life, all while trying to maintain a steady gaze on what moves me forward. I am deciding that my biggest concern is not the external evaluations and reactions to my own individuality, but rather it is my purpose; the thing that moves me forward: To protect, to mentor, and to empower young people. Evaluate & RegatherToday friends, I ask you... What is your grounding force? I urge you to rediscover you, I mean the real you. Rediscover your own mission statement for life; evaluate the current course or vision that you're maintaining. Are you going where you want to be going? I urge you to turn your gaze away from superstition and criticism to your core propeller, and so too, reorient your worldview today. - Rebekah
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11/13/2019 12:26:32 pm
I came here earlier today hoping that you might have a new blog post - little did I know that you were mere HOURS AWAY from sharing your latest thoughts! What a wonderful surprise!
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